Soldier of The Cross, He will not explain it to you.
That is what Faith is about.
His Way is above our understanding. That means He is not responsible to make you understand His reasons or His methods.
After all, if you have to know why, doesn't that mean you need to approve God's thinking and reasons?
Soldier, what does it mean to be a Living Sacrifice? Does the Sacrifice lay on the alter and read off a list of objections?
Come before Him and agree with Him. Aloud. If there are issues, He can handle it.
Tell Him.
Aloud. Today.