Soldier of The Cross, you must decide if He is right or if you must challenge Him.
How fruitless would that be. But, He can take it.
The bottom line is, are you or are you not totally available? If not, you'd better tell Him. And, if you can actually say that to Him, of course it defines who you are and what you want.
There is nothing else.
There is no one else.
Soldier, for goodness sake, let Him know He can have all of you, no matter what it takes.
Tell Him today. Aloud.