Oh Soldier, just look at Him.
[We are writing] about the Word of Life [in] Him Who existed from the beginning, Whom we have heard, Whom we have seen with our [own] eyes, Whom we have gazed upon [for ourselves] and have touched with our [own] hands. I John 1:1, Amplified Bible.
You are not doing this alone. It is not about those around you, it is about the One who called you, went after you, and to Whom you have responded.
Why do you want to be like Him? What is it about Him that wins you? Are you telling Him that?
Soldier, your life is not about your ministry- your life is about your relationship with the One who holds the stars in place. Make sure your decisions are not based on circumstances, but are based on His Word, His leading and His Presence or the lack thereof.
This is not about success, it is about obedience.
Stand before Him and tell Him. Aloud.