Soldier of The Cross, there are many fools and worse, who are against you. Leave the matter aside. Have you not understood that there is a devouring enemy who would love to get you at a weak moment?? What is your weakness? Sex? Food? Time? Reputation? Addiction to entertainment? A need to be right? Religious search? Whatever the matter is, take it to prayer. Move forward and allow Him to lead you in the way He would have you to go. There are no other options. Soldier of The Cross, either He is your Lord, or He is not. This is a matter that you must take up with Him, and it must be aloud. Today.