Soldier of The Cross, Your body will go where your thoughts are.
Consider this seriously. Are you in fact, attracted to being a Living Sacrifice?
You must understand that the battle is in the mind, and that you can learn to be in control. You have been born into the Kingdom if Light. You are now free. That means that you must be aware of your thoughts and that you must bring them into submission. (II Corinthians 10:5)
Time is short. Use it well.
Take the matter to Him, and ask Him to lead you in this matter.
Be sure to do it aloud.