What a privilege it is to be tested by God.
The test is not to see if our faith is strong enough, rather it is to teach us to depend on God and depend less and less on ourselves.
How is it possible to have joy in trials?
Consider it nothing but joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you fall into various trials. Be assured that the testing of your faith through experience] produces endurance leading to spiritual maturity, and inner peace. And let endurance have its perfect result and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfect and completely developed in your faith, lacking in nothing.
James 1:2-4 (Amplified Bible)
There is never a time when the flesh gives up on self-service. The things I do well, I tend to launch into without any renewed awareness of my need to depend on Him.
The Frontier of Faith never ends. There is no peace anywhere else.
Soldier, tell the Lord you are grateful for His attention to you in this area.
Then, find someone to love.