Most of the world is without eternal purpose.
There is always economic pressure, social pressure, family pressure and personal guilt and the need to achieve.
Soldier of The Cross, things are really quite simple. We have been given the moment. We must live in the moment, and we must do so in accordance with the Word of God.
He has not given us a big list of things to do. He has not assigned us to some kind of scavenger hunt. Nor are we left to meet a standard.
We simply need to know Him and to obey Him. He has promised to lead us. He has promised to change us. He has promised to give us Peace and He who indwells us empowers us to walk with Him.
Stop trying to make it so complicated. The deeper, the more simple.
Look up and move on!