John 21:1 says:
After this, Jesus let Himself be seen and revealed [Himself] again to the disciples at the Sea of Tiberias.
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He has always revealed Himself to those who want to see Him. He has never turned anyone away, and He has never failed to answer a genuine call.
He has never disappointed anyone who has waited for Him. And, those who do not trust Him and who take preemptive action against His possible failure, are always disappointed.
Soldier, you have made the decision to follow Him. You have decided that you agree with Him that there is nothing worth living for apart from Eternal Life.
So, you must take up the Cross daily because that is His condition. You must leave aside the things that are not compatible with discipleship. You must submit to Love. You must be eager to change according to God's Word.
You must be willing to serve and to reach out to the very ones who seem to reject you.
If He asks that you wait for Him, it means that you wait no matter what. Are you going to live as though He might fail? Or are you going to put your weight visibly on His Promises?
Soldier, determine to take pleasure in the exercising of your faith. While you are waiting, feed the poor, visit the sick, comfort the grieving and attend to those who are in prison.
Pray.
Then, pray more.
You are under the lights.