Soldier, when you crossed The Line, you told the Lord He could have you.
The Spirit moved within you and revealed the beauty of being willing to let Him take your life in order to do whatever would glorify Him. From that time, when you have read of those who have gone before, your heart burns with the longing to serve Him, and to love Him with all that you are and have.
There is no second best. Nothing else is eternal.
So, develop an awareness of what gets your attention and why. The battle is in the mind. Learn to govern your thoughts. Bring the matter of your focus to the Lord in prayer. Tell him about it. He will train you. That means that there will be exercises in faith and in learning not to look to "the left nor to the right."
Look up and move on!