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I am often accused of
having a lot of energy.
It isn't so.
I am quite busy: I am a pastor's
wife, I have the business, and teach at the University of Southern
Maine, and play in the Portland Symphony and other musical organizations,
and am a fulltime law school student (2nd yr).
If I stop to think about
it, I am usually incredibly tired.
But I have only one life.
It isn't that I want to get a lot of things done in order to
claim the time was well-spent. It is that there is desperate
need everywhere.
It is 11:20 pm, and I have
just come home. I am doing this devotional because I cannot comfortably
go up to bed without expressing to you that I have found Jesus
to be real and to be the Rock of Ages.
This isn't energy, it is the Holy
Spirit. The awareness of the need of the world to see Jesus is
supernatural, and that is the vision that drives the committed
believer.
In a year and a half, law
school will be over, and hopefully, I will pass the bar exam.
I am fifty-one, so I can see the day coming when I will not be
able to travel all over the world to play my bassoon. Any number
of things could happen to relieve the schedule or change my personal
circumstances.
No matter what the setting,
I have decided to spend my life telling as many listeners as
possible that in spite of my complete unbelief, Jesus reached
out to me twenty-three years ago. He is real. He is really, really
real.. The world needs so desperately to know that.
If there were an earthquake
near you and you could hear voices, would you be occupied with
your rest and retirement? Or would you begin to pull away rocks?
Would you give much thought to your bleeding hands? Could you
possibly take a bubble bath and watch a movie after hearing a
buried plea for help?
Me either.
Lord Jesus, please take
this life, and use it in any way you can to honor Yourself, and
to reach a lost world. Change in me those things that must change
in order to make me pliable and useful to your purposes. I want
to learn not to count the cost, but to be easily used, easily
moved, and easily changed. I want to be like you.
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