Soldier of The Cross, when the load gets heavy and the storm is intense, you must learn to do the next thing.
Even though the craving is strong, you do not need to know why, when or where. You need only to move forward by faith in the space illuminated by God's Word.
"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path"
Psalm 119:105
He gives light for the next step. The problem is that you feel as though you can not make that move. You can and must do it by faith.
Lord Jesus, tonight I stand before you in the Cathedral of my heart and need to pour out my situation. You have said I must do this and so I shall.
The storm is raging and I am in the middle of the waters. There is no way out. By faith, I raise up to take the Hand outstretched to me.
I will not look down.
My Lord and my God.