Being a faithful Soldier does not mean doing everything perfectly according to the human concept of perfection.
It means not veering from following Him.
Not giving in to self-condemnation.
Not whining about discomfort.
Not passing on tidbits about another unless edifying.
It means being consistent in the Word.
It means unflagging, honest and available in prayer.
It means being in the Assembly every time the door is open.
It means being willing to walk where there is no path, loving the one you would like to shoot, and being willing to obediently take on the thing that comes with His approval, but guaranteed disapproval from everyone else.
No one gets everything the first time. No one is exempt from training and correction. Why should you be any exception?
He is the only one who is perfect. How gracious of Him to let us be changed into His likeness.
Soldier of The Cross, look up and move on!