The true Soldier of The Cross is available for the will of God no matter how things appear.
No matter how much they hurt.
No matter what the consequences.
No matter what others think.
No matter what must be given up.
The Soldier is developed, shaped and changed in the course of the prayer life. The only heart that can submit in the middle of the storm, is the heart that has been habitually submitting in prayer.
Tell Him.
Alone and aloud.