I can't tell you how many have said to me "I just wish I knew what the future holds . . ."
Soldier of The Cross, you are not allowed to go there. Haven't you told him you would be His? Haven't you told Him He could have His way? Haven't you said you want to be a Liiving Sacrifice?
Taking up The Cross and following Him means that you are willing for His Way and that you are eager to leave behind your need for a blueprint.
Oh, Soldier. What is your issue? You don't need to know the future. You need to see Jesus.
Is there anything else? Is there any conrtol that is better than faith in Him Who holds the stars in place?
Tell Him you don't have to know. Tell Him you trust Him. Tell Him you will submit to anything that will glorify Him.
Tell Him now and tell Him aloud.