Trust requires unanswered questions.
So many want to know "Why?".
The answer is not going to be forthcoming in this lifetime and that is because He has asked that you walk by faith;
"For in Him we live and move and have our being. . ." (Acts 17:28, Amplified Bible.)
Oh, Soldier. You have been through the mill, and no one has been able to console you. Physical disaster? Financial devastation? Death? Lies? Pain? Desertion? Paralysis?
He does understand. You don't get to understand until we stand before Him in Glorified bodies and have all knowledge. And, for whatever reason, He has determined that the best thing for you is to trust Him. Lay it at His feet and move on according to the Light He gives.
He never gives Light for more than the next move, although He often brings a vision of Himself in the matter.
Soldier, Are you His? Then make the daily commitment that is The Life decision. It has to be made each day.
Tell Him you are His. Tell Him aloud. Tell Him that He can do anything with your life and tell Him that you do not need to know the reason why. Will you be a Living Sacrifice?
Tell Him.
Aloud.
Today.