"But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work. . ."
James 1:4a (Amplified Bible)
Soldier of The Cross, the bottom line is, are you willing to be changed or not?
It is not always easy, and often the things that feel the most intense are the very things that must go.
Patience does not come by merely wanting it, although availability is the first step. Patience and endurance come by going through trials that seem endless and unbearable. Yet, we learn to go to Him and stand on His Word through the storm.
He loves us enough to live within us and take us through the deepest waters.
It isn't about torture, it is about Love. And becoming like Him. Making Him seen before a lost world. Being prepared for eternity.
If you are available, tell Him. Aloud.
He'll take you at your word and will meet you in this most wonderful matter.