Remember, God's Grace is greater than all your sin.
It is easy to cheapen the Grace of God. The mind wants to equate His Grace with the forgiven sin. Such is not the case. The mind can not conceive of the vastness of His Grace.
There must be a decisive receiving of His Love and Grace. Otherwise, the Soldier of The Cross is always suffering from the penetrating darts of the enemy. When He is taken at His Word and there is no more comparison between the offenses and the forgiveness, there is freedom to enjoy New Life in a deeper dimension.
Soldier of The Cross, your sins are removed as far as the east is from the west. Stop looking back and/or self-examining. The Holy Spirit is able to reveal anything that ought to be shed.
Look up and move on.