So many Christians are probing into the past, attempting to find healing.
Certainly there are some things that must be addressed. But time can not be erased or reexperienced. It is Light that dispels darkness. there must be a pursuit of God. Yes, we are to drop the things that "so readily encumber" in order to run the race.
Some hunt a feeling of well-being and are only looking for relief. The well-adjusted Believers I have met are those who are sacrificially doing something for someone else and who have vigorous and consistent prayer lives.
Soldier of The Cross, your story may be hair-raising. I do not mean to sound cavalier about terrible experiences or secrets that are a burden. The issue is, there is no healing of freedom without the Cross. It is the place of the death of the flesh and it is how He has designed us.
He died to set us free. That freedom is found in Him. It is not possible to know deep peace while avoiding assembling together. It is not possible to know deep peace by analyzing the past. There must be God's Word. There must be prayer.
Much is said about prayer. Yet, even many in ministry have sagging prayer lives.
His Own can experience vast freedom while contained in a tiny cell.
It is not about the past. It is about the Lord.