Soldier of the Cross, what do you really want?
Have you relinquished your agenda in prayer? Or are you still telling the Lord how to fix this?
Your perspective is so tiny compared to His incomprehensible Sovereignty.
So, Soldier, buck up and tell Him you are available for anything and everything. After all, are you a Living Sacrifice?
Tell Him, and tell Him aloud. You need to hear the words you are offering up. The Indwelling Holy Spirit will lead you in prayer.
Then, look up and move on!