Oh Soldier, you are not alone and this is not your Battle!
II Chronicles 20:15 says:
"He said, “Listen carefully, all you people of Judah, and you inhabitants of Jerusalem, and King Jehoshaphat. The Lord says this to you: ‘Be not afraid or dismayed at this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God’s."
How hard is this? It takes an affirmative standing before the Lord and giving it to Him and if possible, aloud. With words that are chosen according to His promises.
The flesh so resists this.
There is relief and freedom, but not when we have to hang on to control. This is so critical.
You must tell Him and aloud.
Today. Then move on.