Soldier of The Cross, the asking of why must come to an end.
We are not equipped to understand, and God has made it clear in His Word. That is why we are to know Him by faith. If we were able, or allowed to understand why, there would be no need of faith. Is there a piercing pressure to do something? To find the reason? To deal with the issue?
What does God's Word say?
Soldier, your job is to serve.
| To love.
To obey.
To reveal Jesus.
To lay down your life for the Brethren.
To run the race.
To Love God.
Is there anything else?