Have you decided what is going to make you happy?
You have made the decision to give your life to the Lord, but your thoughts are centered on the thing that screams to be resolved. In fact unless you are distracted, your mind gravitates to the matter at hand and you find yourself reviewing things and trying to resolve the situation in the thought life when in fact, there is nothing that can be done right now.
What does the word of God say about this?
Unfairly imprisoned, beaten, in coupling chains and deserted by most of his closest associates, Paul wrote to the churches about joy. Overflowing joy. Not because of resolved circumstances, but because of the fullness of the Holy Spirit. Because of the deep well of release that is available to the Soldier who is willing to take up The Cross and follow Him.
There is a wide gap between human happiness and the joy of the Lord. Life cycles between seasons of stress and seasons of release. Such is the case for all of humanity and as long as the Lord tarries, it will be the case. Happiness is the experience of freedom from negativity, even if only for a few minutes. A delighted movie goer can experience happiness for a short time. Someone in the momentum of high achievement can experience happiness because the exhilaration excludes negative emotions.
Such feelings are fragile. While we are all designed to appreciate these experiences, we were also designed for much more. We are to know the Joy of The Lord. This is the Joy that is described as "Rivers of Living Water. . ."
This is the joy that results from agreeing with God.
This is the joy that results from making decision that are based on the Word of God.
This is the joy that results from considering others first.
This is the joy that results from placing your treasure in heaven.
This is the joy that results from faithful prayer that lines up with God's Word.
This is the joy that results from ministering to the sick, the imprisoned and the underprivileged.
Soldier of The Cross, there is much to distract. You must decide what your priorities are.
If you are to know the joy of the Lord, your choices must line up with His and you must lay them at His feet in prayer. This happens over and over and over.
There is nothing else.
There is no one else.