By being a participator, you can have a little or a lot of Christianity.
You cannot experience God in the same way. His Presence and power is available only to those who hold nothing back.
There is always a first time when the Soldier of The Cross tells the Lord he or she will give Him all and hold nothing back. This time is often marks the beginning of the Lord revealing the things that are tightly clutched, deep in the recesses of the heart.
Does it seem like only a small thing? If it is not yielded, it stands in the way of anointed service, Love, freedom in Christ and power to witness.
Everyone knows that God sees all. But this little thing feels small and seems so hidden.
Soldier, what He has is so much greater. What you want cannot be had unless you trust Him fully.
Can't give it up? Tell Him. Talk to Him about it. Give it to Him in prayer, even if it feels like there is no hope. He who designed you surely knows how to release you. The thing you are hanging on to cannot possible compare with what He has and who He is.
Tell Him today. Tell Him aloud.