Soldier of The Cross, have you come to the place of accepting what He wants over your own ambitions?
You must agree with God. Then, He is able to lead you.
The tug is hard. The temptation is great. But, look at The Lover of Your Soul and agree with Him. Does it seem strange? Unlike similar situations? That is how He works.
Soldier, you see only a tiny sliver. He not only sees all, but He sees the beginning from the end.
Boldly approach the Throne of Grace and declare your availability. He will make Himself implicitly clear. He who holds the universe in place is more than able to communicate with you. He will not ignore you and He has never been sneaky with regard to response.
Tell Him. Aloud. Today.