Soldier of The Cross, agree with God that you will understand it all bye and by, but that it is fruitless for you to try to understand it all in this life.
If we acknowledge that we are not able to understand all the big things now, why is it that we think we must understand all the "little" things? Isn't it true that we struggle to understand why this or that thing was said? Why so and so forgot to fulfill that duty? Why the thing broke when it should not have broken?
Does He separate the big from the little?
His Word tells us differently.
Soldier, just do the next thing by faith and with all your being. Many things, large and small, need to be released in order to be able to insure that the ground under your feet is ground on which the Lord may minister without impediment.
You simply must not stop to try to figure out things that re not self-evident. Yes, pray. Yes, ask for sight. Yes, ask for wisdom.
In the meantime, look up and move on!