Soldier of The Cross, you must be relentless in your pursuit of Him.
There must be an affirmative determination to know Him. To recognize Him. To be filled with Him. To reflect Him.
Those who think about Him during the day have predetermined to do so. Like Paul, they have decided that it is their "determined purpose."
Investigate Him.
Have you ever asked Him to answer you according to Jeremiah 33:3?
Have you asked Him to reveal Himself to you? Lately?
Are you memorizing The Word?
Feeling unworthy? He who persecuted the Church was the one who said:
[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection ]which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death. . .
Philippians 3:10 (Amplified Bible)