The issue is, is it your way or His way?
Soldier of The Cross, do you need to lead or are you wililng to follow, as He has instructed?
You must make this decision. Is it according to His Word, or is going to be according to the emotional demand? Who is right?
What is the bottom line? Do you know better than He? Will He forsake you? Of course not.
Soldier, determine to agree with God and tell Him so in prayer. You will find the most eager listener and One who knows the end from the beginning.
Is there anything else?