Many have bled and died in the spreading of the Gospel.
In fact, some of the things people have endured seem incomprehensible.
Yet, when you read missionary biographies, the life of the Soldier is marked by stories of God's faithfulness. There are stories of His deliverance. There are stories of exquisite fellowship with others.
If you are available to serve, you will have a special place where you put life's mysteries. This special place is deep in the heart, where things are completely given up to the Lord.
We do not have the capacity to understand everything, nor do we need to know why. In fact, it is none of our business. If we have to know why, it means we are not trusting.
The bottom line is, we follow Him by and through His Word.
To the death, by His Life!