What counts?
Agreeing with God. And those who are recorded as having agreed with Him are those we consider to be the great ones who have gone before.
I am sure they did not consider themselves to be great. In fact, it is sure they never felt great because God was all the while training them to see and follow Himself. Abraham was a "Friend of God." And, ”Moses was very meek, above all the men which were upon the face of the earth."
Paul is one of my favorites. What a tremendous servant. Yet the Lord's best for him and his ministry included imprisonment, beatings, stonings, being adrift on the sea, betrayal and desertion.
Those who are faithful and follow the Lord reflect Him and bear a quality of greatness that is only recognized by those who are seeking Him.
Soldier of The Cross, do not self-evaluate.
Taking the heat does not mean failure.
Feeling small and incapable does not mean failure.
Failure does not mean failure.
No one is anything except in His power and as He allows. No human charisma can win souls. No brilliant mind can impart revelation or open blind eyes.
We were created to obey. One step at a time.
It will all come together when we see Him. And it will be worth everything.