Soldier of The Cross, what is your charge?
It is not your gift.
It is not your family.
It is certainly not your career.
It isn't even towing the mark.
Your charge is to know the Lord Jesus and the Power of His Resurrection.
" [For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection [which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death. . ."
Philippians 3:10 (Amplified Bible)