Those who are determined to be Soldiers of The Cross do not take themselves so seriously.
By this, I mean that when God is taken seriously, the follower does not demand immediate action, resolution or explanaition.
Without a doubt, the situation must be prayed through. Without a doubt, He cares about the heartache. Without a doubt, He will deliver.
He'll do it in His own way in His own time and against His own backdrop.
Consider missionary Darlene Diebler Rose, a tiny young woman, called to be a missionary in the Dutch East Indies just at the outset of WWII.
Her husband of one year was taken and imprisoned along with Dr. Robert Jaffray and others. When she received the news of his death, he had already been with the Lord for months. The news had been kept from her because she was the appointed slave-like leader of a barracks of hundreds of women and children who were interred and used as slaves for the Japanese. It was thought that if she had news of her husband, she would be less effective.
When Darlene finally got the news, she was of course, devastated. Coming before the Lord, she laid out the entire matter before Him in, as she says "The Cathedral of my heart". Then she asked Him to do such a work in her that no attitude or look on her face would make any dent in the limited smiles and rare laughter of other prisoners. She asked the Lord to use the matter to reveal Himself.
She was forced to watch innocent people beaten and kicked to death. She was put on death row as a spy, confined in a solitary cell, almost starved to death, beaten and tortured.
She says each time she returned to her cell she thought she could not live through another session. But each time, she also told the Lord that He could do anything to glorify Himself. She determined to spend the lonely and miserable hours reviewing the hundreds of verses she had memorized. And every single time, she came before Him and thanked Him aloud for His faithfulness and His Presence.
I won't give the ending away - read the book.
It is the story of a Soldier of The Cross.
Can He really have His way with you? Or are you desperately wanting to have your way with Him?
Vigorously memorize His Word.
Stand before Him today and declare Him to be your own Lord and Master. You can't say it unless you mean it.
Do it aloud.