Soldier of The Cross, it is for Him, from Him and about Him.
It is easy to lose sight of this and try to squeeze the matter into the box of rationality. It won't work.
The flesh will never give up the attempt to be in control and the Spirit will never compromise.
We serve a sovereign Lord. Hallelujah!
Dying to self is something that happens in prayer - over and over and over again. It is not an achievement. It is a process of learning to yield.
He who designed the matter is able to do the deepest work in you to bring about His own likeness.
You must look at Him. Then speak to Him.
Aloud.