Your biggest problem is that you are trying to understand.
There is no verse in the Bible that indicates you have a right to understand. You have the right to obey. You have the right to trust. You have the right to raise your foot for the next step, fully expecting by faith, that there will be light to see the ground on which to plant it.
Do not put God in a box. Let Him have full play. He will lead you and you must learn to follow. He is expanding your territory and enabling you with Power and Light.
Is this about your children?
Your job?
Something strange in your church?
Your marriage?
A depression that seems to by unjustified?
Money?
Nothing is weird to Him. He knew about it before it happened.
Soldier of The Cross, are you completely available?
Tell Him.
Alone and aloud.