Soldier, how much do you want Him?
Are you willing to walk on the water, or are the winds and the waves so daunting that you think you are unable? Did you hear Him say "Come"?
What is the alternative? Have you gotten any peace by relying on your evaluation of the circumstances? When you pray, are you demanding that the Lord do the thing you think has to happen ?
Being a Soldier of The Cross means that you agree with God and that you take your place on the daily altar of a Living Sacrifice. Have you done that? In prayer?
If so, the Indwelling Holy Spirit is able to reveal His extended Hand.
Soldier, tell Him over and over. Aloud.
Today.